2009年12月31日星期四

Welcome 2010!




New year is coming after few minute...Just wanna remember all the happiness and throw away the sadness in tis years...2010 maybe is a challenge year for me,but i hope that i can always do my best in everything~^^

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!

2009年12月28日星期一

Let go???

Feel that wanna write out smthg,but my mind was blank...I want to stretch out,want to release myself from that...not the 1st time i faced tat but i know it was hard for me to let it be...Is fall as sick almost 1 week,but i juz go to visit doctor today...I know i am stubborn one~~~

Something came to me without notices,it was hard...i cant even know how to face it and wat to do...While my friends asking me how to do,i can always talked out smthg to release them and told them how to...but i cant think for myself by this time?




Its look like so complicated...sometime we juz need to let go,then everythings will become easier~~~

2009年12月26日星期六

00:55

大礼已经过了,
也表示姐姐的结婚典礼就快到了!
一大早就看见姐夫的家人送了好多的东西过来~~~
生病了,
没什么特别的心情!
只知道自己的脑袋空空的~
我在想其他事情吗?的确!
我在想着他怎样了...
心情轻松了吗?

一个人在家,
耳根清净的时候,
脑袋是想很多...
看了卡片还是会哭...
或许已经感觉到你的心情吧!
不过我知道一切都需要时间的~

现在的我真的累了!
脑袋空空的,
已经没那精力想太多,
只想好好睡一觉,
也许明天起床后会好一些!
不管电话中的你,
还是面对着你,
我都可以感觉你一直在憋...
时间是最好的良药!

2009年12月25日星期五

平安夜!!!

复杂的心情伸缩在一个平安夜里!
那感觉难以形容~
知道你此刻的心情是怎样
不过我不会再问你
时间是最好的良药!
纵使我问得到的答案还是一样,
就让你冷静下来吧~
原来知道有个人守候这么久感觉是这样的
你的隐藏能力也不赖!
是我一直没发现而已~
这一个平安夜对我来说是心情复杂的一个夜晚
即使坦白了,

还是会觉得...
不是我没隐藏好自己的情绪,
是怕自己说错什么会伤害了你
这是我最不想的~
所以一直都是静静地


我知道坦白真的需要很大的勇气,
可是说了出来,

你好一点了吗?
只希望你真的ok!!!

你的心意我收到了,谢谢!



//ps.今年的平安夜,纵使有点尴尬,可是这一个夜晚是特别的!

2009年12月17日星期四

是轻松了!!!

原来很多事情,
只要不过于执着,
一切顺其自然就不会那么难过了~~~
是我太爱胡思乱想,
所以搞得自己那么累!
不过有的时候想太多是难免的吧...
呵呵!

今天收到了学院寄来的成绩,
我已经逃避了几天,
害怕到学院看出炉的成绩...
不过今天是逃不过了!
手上的成绩...
自己凌乱的脑袋~~~
那时候的我几乎快透不过气来了...
把信封打开,
看了成绩的我是激动的!
我担心的是统统消失了!
全科都过关了~~~
第一件事就是拨电话告诉了爸爸...
所有的多心在一瞬间都消失了,
当时的我也开心得哭了!!!
傻傻的^^


今天下午也与他到了IKEA
看了很多的房间摆设与一些家具~~~
他想买房里的书架...
看了很多的款式,
总算看见了一个合自己心意的!
我们也在那里享用了下午茶
天啊!
今天是星期四耶,
怎么也没想到竟然也会那么多人~~~
虽然他还是说了同样的话,
可是我不再理会了!
就当是让他发泄吧~~~



已经被压力压得快闯不过气的一个星期,
今天统统抛开了!
什么都没想,
就是很轻松^^

2009年12月6日星期日

~A Motivation Camp with the kids~

这一个激励营,是我第一次参与也是很难忘的一次!与孩子们相处的这两天,让我觉得其实我是可以尽情的玩乐,就像孩子们一样,哈哈大笑!之前考试与课业的压力,统统都被孩子们的笑声带走了^^第一天的活动,是让其组员互相自我介绍,因为大家都是不认识的!我带领了“兔子队”!很可爱的一群小孩!婧雯-一个不多话的女孩,国晋-我可爱的组长,进维-最多意见的家伙,不过很会带动气氛,邵轩-画画天才,做事也很认真,英杰-活泼儿一个,慧银-一个安静的女孩,可贞-一个害羞的女孩,馨汝-也是一个不多话的女孩,梓萤-喜欢与人分享她的经历,是个蛮懂事的女孩,嘉玲-一个漂亮的女孩,也是蛮害羞的)自我介绍后,我们每一组都得画一个期是象征我们的队!孩子们一一提出意见,“老师,我要画兔子...老师,我要画月亮...老师,我要......”过后,邵轩就很快的提起笔在纸上画出了一只兔子!随后,其他人再画上月亮与其风景!当时的我看见孩子们的专心与认真的态度...

不过当中还是有一两个挺调皮的,还好他们还会听我的话...画图当儿,进维以及英杰也想了口号:“兔子兔子很厉害,兔队兔队更厉害!”旗子在大家的合作下完成了,不过邵轩对自己要求很高,他还是不断地在旗子上补色...而且看他在画画的当儿,脸上顿时紧绷了起来!唯有不断的告诉他“这不是一个比赛,放轻松!”可是他似乎怎么都松不下来,真的很可爱!旗子终于完成了,时间也到了!





下个环节也是学生的下厨时间...一群人一起来到了食堂外的...学生们自己选好了位置,也拿了材料,准备就绪后就开始大显身手!组员们还蛮分工合作的,洗菜的,切洋葱的,准备鸡肉的,滚湯的~~~开始大家都不太敢碰火炉,所以我先让组员们拿了一锅水,因为我们要滚湯~侥幸的是,林老师又给我们送来了紫菜,所以我们就决定紫菜鱼丸汤~过后我们开始煎蛋,孩子们一开始都不敢碰火炉,进维这才说“老师,我要煎鸡蛋!”鸡蛋煎好了,我们也开始下一道菜,干咖喱鸡~~~煮咖喱还挺不容易得,真的很呛鼻!不过孩子们都受不了,所以把锅教会给我“老师,我们受不了了!”还好一开始我们已经把鸡块烫熟了,所以干咖喱鸡很快就完成了!再接下来就是炒菜...孩子们都很喜欢腊肠...所以我们就用了腊肠配包菜一起下锅炒!挺不赖的~~~两位女生也把杨桃切片,做主菜的装饰!不过,进维一只胡闹的说,:“老师,等下我不知道会不会吃了之后拉肚子!”这小子,自己帮忙煮的食物竟然会从他口中说出这样的话!最后把汤再次滚热,我们就上菜了!





晚上我们还与孩子们一起举办营火会!是我最喜欢的一个环节~孩子们的欢笑声,还有被他们拉着一起转圈还有向前冲的同时,我是很快乐的!当时我我还真的放肆的喊了出来...已经好久好久没有这么轻松了,这就是我一直想做的!那一个晚上,孩子们让我这么放松了自己~谢谢你们^^在外晚餐时,我也买了十支糖果给我的组员们!你们一直吵着我要汽水,可是最后我还是决定买糖果^^






一个挺帅气的男孩-Yan Kang

第二天也是游戏时间,我就负责挤海绵这一个游戏!早上让孩子们享用早餐后,就开始了游戏!不过啊,一开始还真的有点乱,所以大家都被其中一位老师训了一顿再继续游戏!之后都进行得很顺利,我也与孩子们玩得很开心...不断得为他们加油,好让他们争取时间完成游戏~~~不过当中会看见有些小朋友会起内讧,不过给予劝导后,他们也都会听话,把游戏完成后继续闯关~~~他们闯关的当儿,或许我也已经融入了他们吧!在旁计时的我也不忘为孩子们打气,还让他们抓紧时间完成任务^^遇到了我的组别闯到了我这一关,他们都很努力地要完成任务...看见他们的努力与合作,真的很感动!(我亲爱的组长,你把组员们照顾得很好~~~没白费我选了你当我的组长^^)

我可爱的组长-国晋 v(^.^)v

游戏进行到下午大概一点,我们就开始收拾东西准备午餐了!看见大家都这么努力,午餐时间就赏给了每一位小朋友一个鸡腿!每一个都饿坏了,所以都吃的津津有味的~~~我也与我的可爱的组员们一起享用午餐!也与他们聊了很多...吃饱后,国晋还不忘导师吩咐过的事情,所以他也完成了...(辛苦你啦,助长!)
到了分享的时间,伟杰与其他朋友都说不想参与,因为一旦看见播放出来的照片和影片就会掉泪!而且他们也累坏了,所以在一旁小睡一会儿...我不知道会否如他们说的那样,所以我融入了孩子们,一起看播放的影片~~~是真的感触很大!不过,当老师要学生出去表达感想的时候,小朋友们说出了这两天一夜的感想就让我的泪水情不自禁的流了下来!可是老师又问了孩子们一个问题,“昨天我给你们的鸡蛋,谁的还在手上而且还未破的请举手!”而我那一为可爱的组长却说:“已经煮来吃了!”当时真的把我弄得哭笑不得!纵使还没离开学校,可是我已经开始想念我的“孩子们”了!最后,就是我们几位小老师上前感谢他们!






“已经好一段时间没与小孩聚在一起玩乐了~~~孩子们的笑容,孩子们的关心,都已经感动了我!我会把你们的笑容与可爱的模样记在脑海里的^^”

2009年12月2日星期三

Holidays...

Final exam was gone,totally relax now...after 2 weeks revision,now i set my mind free~~~No notes,no exam,no assignments,juz wan to have a short break^^Will have a farewell with a friend,go shopping wif her,back to primary skul for some activities by tis week..for next few weeks i have no planning yet,but at least i can go anywhere i wan..haha^^

Since study week till yest,i had dint sleep well for whole week ald...but 2day i was sleep till wake up myself by no disturbing...I can said tat during my final exam period,i was get nightmare in the night...maybe was too stressing and nervous~~~

Right now,i just thinking where i want to go and meet wif some friends during holiday...And i wan to know the answer since i want to know long time ago...Will i get the answer i wan???I hope u will tell me what are you thinking...


Just enjoy the holidays^^

2009年11月27日星期五

Study Week!!!

I had ald stick wif my notes in house for 3 days...after the breakfast i will juz turn on my laptop and notes and start my revision...It was boring after the whole day wif those "lovely notes"...sometimes i might get mad ahile i'm really tired of it...and i used to juz turn on the music or chat with friends on9 to destress....And sometimes i will juz bring out my Coffee to walk around and it might refresh my mind...but sometimes it might make me mad oso bcoz of its naughty><




Study week...everyone are just concern of revision and revision~Study study and study non-stop~~~will be crazy soon...>
Since i was finish one subject that i was interested and there also quite lot of notes...i was relax abit~3days onli done one subject ==''but for another 2 subject i might take it easy coz not tat much i nid 2 study...will just try to do my best~~~
Last night i was going to yam cha wif friends...I wan to go out since my revision start and getting mad,i wan to distress myself...Yup,i did tat for last night~~~Have a nice chat and fun night wif 3 friends,and his coming was surprise me...by the way,we had enjoy the times of tat and talked a lot nonsense...
Totally relax and dint think anything^^That was nice!

2009年11月16日星期一

Recently...



终于完成了最后一个...现在是该放松心情了吧...似乎这一次比较遭,不过整体来说还好!是自己的准备不充分吧~~~下次再加油吧!现在继续准备下一个测验...德文~~~知道自己最近是太多事情想了,脑袋一片混乱~~~一堆的课业,大考又快到,不过都一一过去了...现在只剩大考得加油咯...

最近似乎体会了很多东西,所以心情起伏也蛮大的,要是再憋的话真的会...><自己想什么很清楚,可是为什么就是说不出来~~~本来是平稳的步伐,却有了起伏,似乎来了一个大转变...希望自己跨得过去,可是有股力量挡着了~~~我想把一切停止,可是我不能!只知道自己很累!很多时候累的脑袋一片空白,什么都想不到!是好事还是坏事???上个星期四去了一位朋友的新店吃晚餐,在这之前也先到了车站载他...Heng 的店开在Old Klang Road-Indulge Cafe,食物还蛮不错...店里的装潢有点空,不过整体上还蛮舒服的!刚开始营业也应该是如此了~~~他介绍了自己的拿手好菜给我们尝试,荣幸的事,其他人都是他请来的厨师下厨,我们几位好友却是他亲自下厨...^^食物还不赖,我们可是享尽口服~~~还满喜欢最后那一个甜点,是蛋糕-Crepe Cake...真的很不错!虽然是cheese,不过却不会腻...与这位朋友也大概一年没碰免了,所以我们也在店里聊了很多...已经很久没这么轻松了!当晚的我只想尽情的享受在晚餐当中,所以没让自己想太多...什么课业统统丢在一边了!



晚餐后我们也打算到Mid Valley找另一位朋友,不过她却已经下班了...在电话中还被她酸了一下,真的是无话可说了!不过这一个晚上,让我有更多的问号???




是该停下了吗?


2009年11月10日星期二

Trip to Borneo Highland...




6/11
Borneo Highland是一个蛮幽静的地方…一旦你待在那里,脑袋还真的是一片空白,什么都没想不过要是住长久的话是不可能的!第一个夜晚就已经觉得闷了…还好其他团员都蛮好相处的,大家聚在凉亭一起喝酒闲聊,有说有笑的,才不至于闷得发慌!当晚,可是越坐越觉得自己根本受不了那一种冷,就好像uncle之前说的二十度或以下…所以我又跑回了房里…房间就在森林旁,无论早晨或夜晚,总会听见鸟叫或是蝉叫声~~~在这里可是限定的地方才可以上网,所以除了聊天就什么都不能做了!不过,傍晚与爸爸散步时忽然发现每一间房的旁边都有个BBQ炉…烧烤会顿时浮现在脑海里!就在夜里大家聚在一起时,也聊到了这一个话题…讨论了了之后,第二天早上也把食物的列表交给了负责载送我们的司机~~~香肠啦…培根啦…鸡翅膀啦…还有马铃薯等…



第二天凌晨五点就已经起床了,不过还是躺在床上!要是真得适应这样的生活,大概需要一段时间吧!没有娱乐,夜里八点之后就什么活动都没有了,简直就是一片清静的芭~~~可是要是想暂时忘掉繁忙的工作与压力,可是很有帮助!因为我在这里可真的是脑袋一片空白,什么都没想~~~不过,爸妈就一直在喊闷~~~是有一点!而且,要爸爸素食还蛮难的!他是个不喜欢吃素的人!这一天还好,因为我们享用完早餐后就出发去Jungle trekking了!从开始到地点需花两个小时…因为我们回到达Kalimantan View Point…其实还蛮担心爸妈的,不过他们说要去就让他们尝试咯!就在我们进入山路开始,探险就开始啦!本来一直跟着导游与团员的我们,却渐渐落在后面了!因为爸爸需要停下休息~山路实在是不容易行走的,因为尝试过,所以更担心父母是否可以受得了!好几次也几乎滑倒,不过好险也站稳了!有些路也蛮斜的,我可是一步也没离开爸妈,深怕他们万一撑不住可以扶着他们!爸妈都是第一次,所以难免会觉得头昏昏的~就因为自己第一次爬山的时候也是如此!经过了1250m的路程,是有一点点的喘,而且路途中也已经停下了好几站,所以几乎都不会觉得累!在这之前已经听领队说一旦到达了山顶,从山顶观望下去的景观可是很漂亮,所以一路上都蛮期待到达目的地那一刻!我们花费了大约两个多小时才完成这一个2250km的路程!到达山顶那一刻整个人是轻松的,脑袋空空,眼前却是天空与山连成一线的景观…真的很漂亮!那一刻的我,什么都没想,之前所想的东西一一抛在脑后了…就像Borneo Mama 告诉我们的,一旦你来到这里,就不要再想东西,就算你很烦觉得压力很大,也不要让自己那么紧张,因为一切都会有办法解决得~~~这位Borneo Mama已经65岁了,可是以她的容貌看起来还真的难以置信!她的秘诀就是,每天都要让自己过得开心,每一天都要笑,不要成天愁眉苦脸的,这样也可以让自己获得开心些!天气渐渐转暗,忽然就下起了绵绵细雨,本以为还可以慢慢步行走到车上,可是雨水却很不给面子越下越大!我们几个就开始一边跑一直跑,!不过我很喜欢当时的感觉,那是一种说不出而自在和轻松!直到跑到车上,所有人都为我们鼓掌,感觉蛮奇怪的,为什么无端端鼓掌呢?哈哈~~~回到了Jungle Cabin梳洗后再享用午餐!









晚上我们也在Cabin外BBQ…冷冷的天气办烧烤会最适合不过了…起火也几乎用了半个小时,不过大家都很互相帮忙~~~其中一位友族的团员还蛮会开玩笑的!在第一个晚上我们在亭内闲聊时,他就已经闹出很多笑话了!还把亭子里的其中一个灯泡给拆下来了,因为他嫌太亮了,拆下来后还说:“like that only romantic!”也认识了一对夫妻带着两个可爱的小孩,还蛮健谈的!我与他们的女儿-佳玲,玩得蛮开心的!真的很可爱!当天晚上她也吃蛮多的,还一直缠着我说:“姐姐,I want sausage!I want ham!”大概是吃太多了吧,她的肚子看起来涨涨的,这她才说肚子不舒服!还好带来了驱风油~~~







最后一天我们大概两点就下山了,而且下了山才知道飞机延迟至晚上7.45pm~~~可是到达机场后,看了显示表才知道原来时间还在-Retime,在机场等了将近四个小时…起飞时间是在晚上9.25pm~~~每一个人都已经累了!很喜欢从机上看下去的夜景,很迷人~~~回到家里已经是凌晨一点多了…很累的一天,不过这一趟旅程也已经放松了自己!




2009年10月31日星期六

现在是00.42

忽然间的一个测试真的让我乱了思绪...
你很坏,
真的很坏!
你的测试是出自于你想知道我的答案吗?
还是纯粹想知道我怎么想...
我是否已经错过什么了?有吗?
答案已经在老早以前就说出来了,
不过你却给了我一个这样的测试~~~
还说已经知道答案,
那是什么呢?
为甚麽不说,
怎么问都不说?
我已经选择坦诚了...
你呢?
难道一切就只是我想太多吗?
还是从一开始我就已经走错了呢?
你的答案是否与我的一样?
是我想的那样吗?
我已经提起最大勇气问你了,
你还是不说...

原来你心里一直想知道的事情与我一样…即使你回复了,还是......算了,就等你准备好了再告诉我!

2009年10月30日星期五

一切来得太突然了!

这两天的我觉得很累~
一瞬间似乎发生了很多很多事,
一切都是在没有预料中的~~~
先是他的妈妈进院动手术,
而且危险性挺高的...
在同一天的夜晚也在线上得知一位朋友去世了~~~
原来之前也发生过车祸,
不过已经康复出院了...
目前为止还是没有一位朋友知道他到底是发生了什么事~~~
一切来得太突然了!
我们根本一点心理准备都没有...
虽然与他没什么交集,
可是也曾经一起实习过,
他是一位满搞笑的朋友...
总是会带给其他人带来欢乐!
很可惜~~~
知道了这一个消息的时候,
我简直不敢相信是真的!
心里就像被什么揪着一样!

“朋友,安息吧!”




放学回家的途中,
天空是灰暗色的,
下起了绵绵细雨...
这样的天气仿佛就是我今天的心情,
也似乎在与我们一起哀悼着这位朋友!
心情更难过~~~
还是祝福他一路好走!


最近的压力太大了,
忙着大考还有最后一份任务,
几乎都没有透气的空间!
很想很想很想找个地方发泄,
已经憋了好几个星期,
就算只让我大喊出来就好了,
至少可以轻松一下!


大考就快到,第一学期也即将画上句点!又是时候准备进入下一个学期的挑战了...那是更艰难的,挑战性高的~希望能一一克服吧!

2009年10月25日星期日

想你了~~~

忽然想念一个人~
刚刚看了她的部落格,
知道天气转凉了,
她近来好吗?
似乎被课业忙坏了吧!
看见她的部落说写的东西,
又再次让我感觉到,
“好友,你近来好吗?似乎好一段时间没与你闲聊了~我很想你!”
很想与你分享最近的一切,
有好多的事情都在毫无防备的时候发生了~~~
有的时候我会很生气,
不过我会收起来不让其他人看见~~~
有的时候会找朋友发泄...
只不过发泄过后还是得面对!
最近我只觉得很累,
每一天上课,赶课业,
几乎没有一秒可以停下...
熊猫眼也渐渐浮现了~~~糟糕!!!
再过三个星期就可以轻松了~~~
加油吧!

2009年10月23日星期五

Prom at 22.10.2009

Sexy & Suave's Prom night was fun on that day~~~Since the classes started and we just keep rushing for those assignment.i felt that we totally dint relax such a few month ald...But that night i think everyone was going fun and crazy...Its was the Prom which i felt that quite ok,is better then the Prom i went b4...

The dinner was in Chinese style and that is the set dinner...The question come out on my mind,izzit the food will suit for everyone?I donno...But 1 of my friend was totally cant eat at all of becoz of she is the vegetarian... The Prom start wif a dance which is quite nice and everyone was concern of that performance...and after that was the lucky draw...I get a Sunsilk hamper,haha~~~The prom was getting fun since got 2 guys singing on the stage...one of the guy was singing the chinese song"童话" and he is Indian.He sang the song very nice and i think everyone was touch of that...

One of the friend was make me think of someone that oso funny like him...We had goes to the prom 2gether and he is the one who keep make us fun on that night...now i met a friend like him in KDU...haha~~~We had enjoy the dinner and the show in the whole night!!!Even the lecturer oso get drunk since the Vodka had served out and he had keep asking of that b4 the prom start...That was so funny~~~Since the Vodka served out and most of them was enjoy for it...During the dinner time,there got few times of lucky draw,and most of the student and lecturer were get the present...I can said everything was better then the prom i went before...There oso the Prom King and Prom Queen and they are really look nice that night.









The party was end with the song “重来”that sang by a SHTCA member.That was nice and everybody want him 2 encore…haha^^Then the rocking time was started and the dance floor was open to all students and lecturer…I like the music and environment, coz its totally took away all the pressure in my mind tat time…

2009年10月20日星期二

Dinner at YUZU restaurant 19.10.09

That was a enjoyable dinner for me...Such a long time i din't gather and chit-chat wif them!We had planned the dinner since last week but it keep delay coz of our coursework and work... And i know that they gt other purposes to go there for dinner...Well~we had our dinner in YUZU Japannese restaurant and there is where he work...

We reached there is around 8smthg...He had reserved a table for us and that was a nice view over there. After we ordered the food and they keep question and question me...Ok,i answer all,but i cant even know the answer some of the question... He had come over our table and chit chat wif us... That was the 1st time he meet wif my secondary school's friends and he had share a lot of his working experience wif them... What they keep talking about is me...Ya,i donno how 2 refute them and i juz can said"u all win liao lo!!!"Haha~~~Even he oso talked same thing wif them><








TEMPURA


After the dinner,he told me that we still got the dessert...But we take it after few minute~~~ For the dessert was a scope of green tea ice cream,a cake and some fruits~~~ Ok,mine 1 is gt a bit special wif other since my friend told me then i onli realize of tat... We are enjoy and keep discuss the same topic...


We had chit-chat in the restaurant until 11pm and we are the last guests. I know that i'm totally relax myself tonite...Becoz of the funny friends and the dinner was going fun and abit crazy too...

I get to know somethings from a best friend...maybe i should try on that..."Hui Mei,trust me,u should do tat,go ahead!i felt the answer is yes!"Wan, i'm really affected of what you told me juz now and i willing 2 go for it,but please giv me sometime..."Same as whats happen to you,i hope that you can have the new life and please release urself...Bless You!

2009年10月14日星期三

依然存在着!

已经累得不想说话,
不想再看着烦人的课业!
只想让自己静静的,
不受任何的影响~~~
除了...~~~~~~以外已经没有其他词可以形容了!
现在真的很讨厌!
很想~真的想
狠狠地,放肆的发泄出来...
很想让自己任性一次~就一次~~~

脑袋是空空的,
就是压力死赖着不走!
眼皮已经累得撑不开了却还是得撑,
放肆的喊出来是我现在最想做的事!
已经憋了好长一段时间,
每一次就只能对着部落发泄,
对着朋友倾诉!


渐渐地已经不是别人倾述的对象,
而是自己需要一个倾诉的对象...
心情垃圾桶始终还是抵不过垃圾溢满的那一天,
始终得倒出来!

2009年10月12日星期一

erm...no idea~~~

心里的想法往往都是大胆的,
只可惜又有多少人会真正做到心里想的那样呢?
最近似乎一点都不平静...
好多好多的事情得做!
任务一个接着一个,
根本连透气的空间也没有~
连续熬了两个星期的夜晚,
情绪起伏更大!
对着未完成的课业,
根本就无法好好休息!
即使想休息,
到了床上还是,
想发泄的时候却找不到一个适合的地方...
很想放肆的喊出来~~~
可是...在哪里?
累了就躺在床上休息~~~
不过脑袋却是满满一堆东西!
真正的了解到无论课业或工作都会有压力的...
只是面对的问题不一样!


看到的和学到的的东西变广了,
一些从未面对过的事情,
渐渐地...心里的想法也不再偏激~~~
会尝试放开,
接受一些自己从未尝试的事物!
想法与心智不同了...
知道很多事情不能强求,
即使努力过后还是没办法达成,
只能祈求下一个机会的到来...
只要自己努力过就不会有遗憾啦!



最近一直在问自己同一个问题,
是或不是?
不过我得不到答案!
一个很简单的问题,
答案却深不可测!
其他人都看出来了,
可是我却还在与是与否战争着!

2009年10月7日星期三

Dinner in college...

Something talked out by other people,izzit better then we talked ourselve?Maybe...Yesterday my class was end quite early,and i had date wif 2 friends...I had meet them in Mid Valley-YUZU retaurant that is where Alex work in.Reach around 4smthg and i saw Richie chatting wif Alex.2 of them are so free and juz chit-chat over there...such a long time dint meet up wif Richie,but had no different oso...



Alex's manager had come over to join us while we are chatting...His manager suddenly asked a question and its really embarrassed...By the way,we had no talked anything,and i donno tat is whether default or deny...Once again I gt the same feeling~~~But since now each other still keep,i used it...Alex was keep scolding and comment alot while we are on the way 2 the Flamingo college.I had used to it but Richie was keep cool down him and advice him...Haha~~~That was funny! Was our junior doing a buffet dinner and we had get invited...I met alot junior that study 2gether b4...While the buffet started,its made me remind a lot memory during last time...During i practical wif classmate and junior and oso DCA19 which is our senior...that time was fun and we gt lot of memory during practical time...it was crazy and relax!^^And while we saw tat out junior having the practical over there,we ourselve will have the comment to them...


The food is juz ok,but Richie had show tat funny expression tat make me cant imagine how "Nice"tat food...but i had try it,its juz can be said as"so so"but we understand they all are juz new intakr student,but some of the food are ok...I juz cant laughing bcoz of Richie keep show me the face...We met the principle and chef in college oso...Thought tat we will back late tat night,but we had left in 9pm...after send Richie home and during the way 2 my home,i saw tat Alex's both eyes almost close up...and he told me he used 2 it,coz every night he was like tat.While i heard of it i had get shock...It was so dangerous!And i had abit worry about him~~~He was going bac alone every night and in sleepy situation...So i had keep told him becareful!

I had dint relax long long time ald...so i had dint think anything for tat night,and i just enjoyed wif my friend in the dinner~~~

2009年10月6日星期二

Recently...

The mid autumn festival juz pass by...but i not really enjoyed for tat day><

Recently really have not enough sleep and we still got lot of assgn nid 2 do...not even can take a good rest or juz stop for awhile...Everyone was stress enough><

Can felt tat my temper recently quite bad...i cant control it well...But for sure i wont stretch out straight,and i onli keep it...i will trying 2 do other things 2 divert my attention...sometime i used 2 juz put on my ear phone and turn on the music loudly...tat onli music in my mind and i won think of other...I know tat if i'm moody,everything cant be done well...So must be control it as well...

Wish to have a long long period of sleep,so can get back all the spirit!

2009年10月2日星期五

可以消失吗?

已经忙了几乎两个星期,
还是那么多的任务还没赶完!
最近压力真的太大了,
很想很想~~~~~停下来休息一下!
很累!
压力也没停止过><

连续好几天都赶功课至凌晨,
第二天又得一大早起床去上课...
每一个起床的早上,
都是迷迷糊糊的,
有的时候头很重,
根本不想从被窝里爬起来!


现在真的真的很烦,
控制不了自己的思绪,
我很想冲出屋外大声发泄出来...
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊..................很烦啊!
我不希望明天的到来,
不想...不要...
“你”可以从我脑海中从我眼前消失吗?
我不想看到“你”! ><

2009年9月22日星期二

Cameron Highland's trip~~~

I'm juz back from Cameron Highland 2day....The 3days2nights trip have going fun and me and family enjoyed for it...The 1st day we reached there ald 4pm because of the congested and its take almost 2 hrs...Very boring in the car and saw a lot of cars on the road...somemore there gt a lot of tourist on the road and the wet market...the road was blocking of cars and people~~~


We goes to the wet market bought some potato for the bbq and we had bought a lot of delicious food...bcoz of we all were so so hungry after the half day on the road and we need to fullfill the stomach 1st~~~hehe^^We oso bought some corn there...yup,thats so sweet,and we can ate it without cooking^^while we reach the apartment,my 2 younger brother and uncle had started the fire and we had taken out all food we prepared b4...that night was cold,but we felt warm bcoz of barbeque...We had bring along our Coffee for this trip~Yup,its was enjoyed oso as we felt tat...but during bbq time it looks boring on the sofa...


During the 2nd day,i had woke up by my Coffee becoz of its woke up early and walk in and out from its cages,it maked me cant sleep tat time...so i woke up and play wif it~~~We goes to the strawberry farm and cactus farm...the weather is quite cold in the morning and that time was around 9am...we all are keep shivered but i like tat feeling...its was cold!!!^^I had put my hand inside dad's long sleeved shirt's pocket...That was so warm...Haha~In the strawberry farm,actually tats no much strawberry as we think...but there was a lot plp everywhere...that was a strawberry which is looks like palm...it was suprising~~~we also ate the strawberry ice cream in the farm,and i not really like the taste,coz it was so sweet... ><
lots of love fruits~~~


strawberry which is look like palm~~~

Lots of vegetables here~~~^^i like here so much!!!


The cactus~~~



The Smoke House...which is the history house in Cameron highland...

Tea Farm...




After travel around the Cameron highland,we goes to the wet market and bought some corns...Well,that was around 4pm while we reached our apartment...and we had our meal around 3pm in the town but tat was jaming y tourist and car,we were walked here and there but cant even find a restaurant 2 sit down there...finally we have our lunch in a mamak...em~not bad,still acceptable,coz the food still ok~after we reach to or apartment,we had juz took a short rest and my 2 younger brother had started the fire and some of us juz prepare the steamboat...everyone was bz tat night~bbq and steamboat at the same time...The stomach cant even fill in the food anymore...but we are enjoyed^^Unfortunely,that night was raining,but the bbq nv stop bcoz we nid 2 finish all of the food,haha~~~
The 3rd day,was the last day for the trip...we had goes to the wet market and buy the vegetables and strawberrys for sure...that was lots of people there,bcoz that market running the concept is everyone can buy 50 types of vege in RM100...tats y the market was jam by plp...
The 3d2n trips was end at 4.30pm...and i'm enjoyed for tat..as wat i felt is,i'm totally forget all pressure and those assignment...i think i had enjoyed enough... I will always told myself to relax,for tis time i really did tat..haha~~~Great!!!