久违的部落格！

看来我还是不怎么懂得打理自己情绪。

往往以为一切往肚子里吞，

一觉醒来后就会什么事都过去了。

其实都不会是那一回事！

告诉过自己该学习接受和承受一切了，

可是总会有撑不了的一霎那!

之后呢...还是得收拾心情坦然面对~~~

刺痛的心交织在一个难以入眠的夜晚，

不喜欢也很厌恶这一种心情！

已经是好一段时间没有以部落格抒发了，

想想之前的自己也是以这种方式发泄的...

把心情打成文字，

把所有脑袋里的“垃圾”统统丢进部落格里，

过后就会是轻松的...

告诉自己没事了，别想太多就好了^^

after the month~~~

I have such a time dint write over here...maybe i used to be talked out rather then type out now...is having my sem break now~~~sometimes will goes out wif him,juz have a dinner and walk around...i finally can relax my mind and nothing will stress me...Sometimes i will keep think about how can i gone through last semester???that was busy and make me crazy enough!!!The life is totally different like 1st semester,that was tough~Sometimes i really tried to release the pressure,but i had fail to do so...Everything had keep in my mind and hard to removed....

Complicated things had all gone~~~

Yesterday i had chat with a best friend...She is not in the mood as i will always listened to her... Know her feeling well, but i know that was something that can't be avoid and must faced it also...As i always told others friends the same thing, "Something cant be avoid, we can just let it be!" ~~~ Just relax, Xue Wei...there is always something can be solve,just let it be~~~

I like to think so much recently...is about my result...maybe i still same as last time,cant even relax while i think about that,and i used to juz stretch to him...He will always cheers me up just donwan me to think so much..."Thanks,my Dear^^"...

14.5.2010

That night was full of relax and happiness to me...Due to i'm keep stressing for my assignment tis few week,i had no gave myself a break and keep doing non stop. Someone was keep saying me is stubborn one...yes,i was admit that...hehe~~~


Yesterday,I were relax the whole night by hang out with him. Seriously,is the 1st time i felt that i'm really care by someone and i appreciate of what he did. I can share wat ever i want and no need to keep. Caring is always there and i really can get it from him...Is happy to be with him and wat he did for me was always surprise me... "Dear,thanks so much^^"






I had leave out all that thing that i donwan to think of , and will nv think of that again... Most of the time we juz simply let it be of smthg,so that we won't feel hard on that. Nowadays always busier with those assignmment and report. That was make me mad and stress enough... Just hope the time will pass quickly and everything will be settle down~~~

"Love is from heart,but for me,heart is juz pumping us the blood..."tis is what a cold joke that telling by my lecturer during the class...HAHA~~~

Gambateh^^

I am not in the mood today,juz because of i saw my result and i felt dissapointed on it. I need to prove myself more on that ald...Even hard,but i must do it better...Well,is seriously no tat mood wanna talked and go lunch with friends,so i just stay in college and wait for the next class...



I know i have to avoid myself to expect too high,but i always fail to do so...as i always dissapointed of what i had thinking,because of the result will be different... Is the 1st time i'm like that after i study in degree...but i still need to face on that...stretch out to best friend and the friend told me to do my best next time. Just chatting with my dear and she cheers me up with some words...that was so appreciate...


Gambateh...which i need to hear of today~thank you so much,my dear^^

21.28 19/04/2010

好不容易把一切丢开，
相比之下，
更喜欢现在的自己...
凡事都不必隐瞒，
凡事都可以很轻易的说出口~
这样的我很轻松！

每一天只为课业而烦恼，
不想让自己想多余的事情~
朋友的倾诉，
我聆听而不多加意见！
最近似乎发现了一些事情，
我不敢肯定也不敢向前，
大概是没信心吧！
也或许不想再面对相同的事情~
好友说我想多了，
有吗？我不知道！

习惯性做功课至深夜都不入睡，
习惯性在网上与他闲聊，
习惯性让自己诉出一切不愉快，
习惯性不再写出来~~~
习惯了就是习惯了！


明天的新加坡旅程，
没特别的心情，
也不怎么期待~
回来后有一叠的课业需要赶的…
旅行后需要做功课，
似乎没有一个人会喜欢吧！

加油吧！！！

一个倾诉者的聆听者

之前总爱把一切事情收藏起来，现在已经习惯性不再把事情闷在心里~有的时候觉得，其实不必一个人承担那么多，说了出来真的好很多！很多的事情在不自觉的有了变化，开始是难过的...开始会责怪，会生气~~不过始终会有过去的一天！是因为需要有人分担才能如此轻松的抛开吧！

渐渐地不再把一切藏起来，习惯性向某人倾诉...之后的心情，纵使没有100%，却也已经将一半的不开心丢掉了！偶尔会想自私一点，只想倾诉而不是聆听~听众当久了，自己也需要一个聆听者！的却，我找到了~你，很有耐性的听我诉出一切，还会给与适当的意见~当听众的心情是需要耐性，需要仔细聆听，并且不会觉得闷！我怀着这一种心情聆听~可是，现在我做不到了，心烦意乱的什么都听不进去，告诉我什么都只是一片空白，我给不了意见！很多时候真的已经给耐性在听了，可是我真的什么都听不进...可以说，自己也很不冷静吧！

最近，无论遇到什么事情，只要是不开心的，我会找人诉出一切~我不会闷着，也不会选择写出来~~~直接发泄出来是真的好很多!!!是因为不必再藏起来独自承受，多了一个人分担的关系吗？也许是听某人说得多这一句话“说出来总比埋在心里好!”

很多的事情总会在你或无防备下就发生了！你避得了吗？你逃得掉吗？很难，的确很难~~~不过只要撑得过去，总会雨过天晴的！心境改变了，凡事往好的一方想的话，一切都会好起来~选择性让自己忙碌，什么都不想也是一个不错的方法！只要不超过就好了~~~要放下不容易，不过时间是最佳良药。

又有多少个人会愿意当那一个倾诉者的聆听对象呢？

Thanks for all the birthday blessing^^

24.2 .2010

晚上与家人到了Kepong的一家泰国餐厅享用晚餐...已经好一阵子没吃泰国餐了~~~叫了一桌的泰国食物，还有Tom Yam Gong...真的很享受!!!这一个晚上有大饱口福~~~切蛋糕的当儿，心里想的一一浮现在脑海里...顺其自然就好了^^

一位好友的生日卡，有感动了我~你所写的都是我心里想的！就像你说的，我会试着让自己不想太多，即使是问号，我也会顺其自然的~这一个年龄似乎就在一瞬间就到了，真的很快！很多的东西都得学着拿得起放得下，不该太过固执的，该学着放手~这是一位好友告诉我的~

这第二份礼物，会好好收着的~谢谢你^^晚餐时的话，不必太在意，顺其自然就好~~~临睡前，十二点正。手机就开始响不停了，信息一封接着一封~几位好友的祝福有感动到我~真的真的很开心收到你们的祝福~~~一个关心的责骂，让我哭笑不得，音乐也很可爱（n_n）! (Thanks,Mei Kuan...don worry la,k?)

25.2.2010

已经踏入21岁，会是另一个阶段的开始了！也许不会有很大的变化，可是我知道，很多事情需要学着自己面对了！就像每一位朋友在信息里给与祝福之余还一再提醒我要放松自己，不可以让自己压力太大！我会的~有些事情还是得有耐性的，我知道不必太过强求，这样就会轻松很多~今天也收到一位在迪拜的好友的信息，有惊喜！ (Thank you,Wan^^)

***想什么都不重要了，一切顺其自然就好了~还是轻松点较好***

二十一岁生日~~~即使简单，不过对我来说还是特别的~大家的祝福我会记得的！^^

New Semester~

新学期刚开始第一个月
就已经被一份又一份的任务压得喘不过气了~
是该好好分配了~~~
这一个学期比上一个学期更忙
好多好多的东西都堆在一起的
目前是还应付的来~~~
再过几天就是新年了，
可是我又“打败仗”了
难道就像你说的那样???或许吧！
最近好几个人都说我很固执，
即使已经撑不下去了还是固执的不放手
还是像头牛一样什么都听不进去
很多时候不是不听，
只是想尽快把手上的事物忙完~
我有试着轻松一下自己的咯！
你还说我一直在强迫自己...我有吗???
很多时候会被你们说的我无言以对
也许你们都说对了~
我会尝试改的~~~

三人约会~~~

今天与两位好友的约会还挺不赖的~~~
第一次看3D电影-Avatar
带上那一副眼镜，
在电影中所看见的人与物都很真实！
影片中的景很漂亮~
即使不是现实世界
不过美丽画面一幕接着一幕呈现在眼前
电影中的斗争情节令我起了鸡皮疙瘩...
观赏了这一部电影，
才知道原来真的是他们所说的这么好看!!!

好一段时间没这么轻松了吧~~~
这两位好友让我看见什么是真正的友谊
更让我体会，
即使一个小小的承诺
尽管分割两地
还是可以让彼此间的友谊拉近~~~
即使是在开车或是在吃东西的他，
还是可以与她斗嘴的
午餐时他的一个幼稚动作
更是令我影响深刻~~~
我想...后座的人看见他那样也觉得怪怪的吧！
你下次就低调一点咯~呵呵！
看见两个人斗得这么起劲
是蛮有趣的~哈哈~
打从之前就是这个摸样，
我也已经习惯了！
哈哈~~~
要是哪天你们都静静的就真的很不自在了！


我等着下一次的约会^^
也许会有更多的火花!!!

Happy and Sad~~~

Such a few weeks i dint come here and i was bzing wif sis's wedding and everything had been settle down last Sunday.I juz know my feeling was inarticulate.Same as parent and younger brother~Suppose shoukd be happy but our whole family was cry ald...is normal de^^During the wedding dinner time,i was so tired and juz ate the 1st and 2nd meal...then i had walk around 2 chat wif my friends and aunty uncle...i felt sorry that i have dint spend some of the time wif those friends...hope u all don mind~

I get to know something from you that i nv expect tat you will told me like tat...anyway,thx so much...and tat was fun^^

28/1 in the night time i was received a call from JC...He asked me"do you know Ming get into an accident?he now in coma and leg had broken!!!"I was shock while i get tis news and i almost cry...He is my junior and oso best friend that we had study,working,have fun 2gether...but now he in coma...i totally lost my mind tat time...at the next day i had goes hospital wif some friends to visit him,but the visit time had over and we juz can met wif his mom...While aunty told us how its happen and about Ming,i almost cant control myself,but luckily i can keep it...tat time Ming still in coma,so tat everyone was worrying...He ald coma in 2days...

I hv called 2 aunty juz now and i get the good news...Ming was wake up ald,but his emotional was out of control ...so tat doctor gav him an injection and let him fall asleep again...Hope tat he will accept the true and don ever blame to himselve...Bless him!!!Maybe will go visit him wif friends after he move 2 the general ward..."Ming,take a very good care and rest more~"


"Don't ever try to do something that will let u regret in the future!"This is what i get to know this few days...

Fight for the new semester!

Starting to fight for the new semester and all of the assignment...Tis semester will be quite challenging and i think i can learn more things from it...We had discussing 2 trips during the classes,withing Malaysia and overseas.That was so intesresting activities and learning during a trip...That sure we are not go for holidays but for study and learning...

International trip we are going to Singapore and we will going by train and back by plane...Like what our lecturer told us,just wan all of us to get the experience on both transport...Other then tat,we will also stay in 2 different star's hotel...we need to know whats the different between both hotel of tat...And we will be giving a task during the trip in Sg and need 2 complete it and might hav a presentation in the night...Thats what i expecting to go for^^

Even i was sleep enough but donno t still in sleepy mood...hehe!!!Every morning was out from house around 6.45am tat still in dark,it was so early,but hv no choice...My class was starting in 8am daily...My timetable can said quite full,but luckily onli from Mon-Thurs^^I can rest for 3 days after those pack times...But all of the classes will start by next week,and must paid full attention in the class ald....pls don be sleepy!!!Especially the QM class...><

Just wish everything goes smooth in this new semester^^

Starting the new sem...

After 1month break,now i'm going bac to the college and start the new life...Since 1 month dint wake up so early,but i still can woke up myself early in the morning~~~Ald 1 month dint drive through the road,was a bit jam 2day and its make me felt sleepy>. <

New semester is getting harder then last sem,like wat the Dr. Rod told us,"this subject is really hard and difficult..." I know i have to put more effort on this sem,coz of those subject are hard...Will try 2 do my best...Shouldn't think too much and juz go through all the classes shuld do^^

After finish class juz felt sleepy...i cant imagine how will be after this week,but i know will starting 2 busy for all the coursework and assignment...Is the 1st time teaching by this lecturer,maybe nid sometimes to used 2 it~~~Hope that i will "fall in love" with those subject la,hehe~~~

New sem might be getting harder,just do my best^^